...went out for a farewell/21st dinner with the family tonight and had a lovely time. But felt this underlying feeling of sadness. Being the poetic/romantic old sap I am I think the light had this effect on me. Driving to the restaurant at about 7, in the twilight, with the countryside glowing in this tinged light, made me feel comfortable but sad that this won't last forever. Not long before I'm out carving my own life for myself, not long before I'm back at uni (thrown to the hounds!!!), which I'm also nervous/sad about. Sad because that's coming to end too, and all my uni memories, despite the often-shiteness of the place have that twilight tinge on them too.

I'm going to miss my going-out buddies so much.